Welcome to Courageous Confessionals.
At the time I began this blogging journey, in December 2011, I was completely overwhelmed with the hopeless darkness of despair. I was living in the depth of consequences of choices, compulsions, and toxic thinking. Relationship/love addiction, Co-dependency, Compulsive Eating/Overeating, dysthemic depression, anxiety, chaos and stress were my daily companions.
I had gotten completely isolated: socially, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and relationally. I had abandoned myself and made it too easy to be abandoned by those I’ve cared about.
For years, decades even, I have “dabbled” around the edges of the 12 Step Recovery culture, never moving beyond the first three steps. Overcomer’s Outreach, Celebrate Recovery, CoDA, OA, and other recovery groups were visited and explored. However, due to the logistics of life circumstances, the lack of availability of meetings and support for those not dealing with alcohol and drug addictions, and my own willful self-determination to stay sick and stuck, mean that my healing and recovery process has been long and slow with many back steps and plateaus.
I still wrestle with these issues today. Thankfully, I’m not as overwhelmed by them as I once was. This is because of what has been happening since I began blogging. At first, I was trying to follow the steps and what I considered the “rules” of recovery process. However, as my life carried on, I started using the space as a kind of journal and confessional. I also, slowly began reading other blogs and finding others who were sharing their experience, strength, and hope in their own journeys.
Reading what others were going through in their lives and how they were coping, moving through painful and debilitating circumstances with grace, courage, and love in the midst of anger, fear, confusion, and oppression, fortified my determination to move beyond where I’ve been stuck inside of myself.
People sharing their stories of going through, surviving and coming out on the other side of alcoholism and drug addiction, mental health disorders and diagnoses, physical disease and disability, disasters on personal and national levels, as well as confronting and standing up to prejudice and oppression inside their own families and society at large have touched me in ways they don’t even realize and may not understand.
Through satire and humor, art and photography, poetry and prose, fiction and autobiographical stories of perseverance, endurance, strength, pain, suffering, and hope have all touched me and the lives of many others. Some of the stories are raw and off-putting on the surface. Some of them are heartbreakingly honest and open. Irrespective of systems of belief and religion, the spiritual interconnectedness of us all is being displayed, shared, and passed on.
Somehow, my blog started getting noticed and I began receiving a number of blogging awards in a very short period of time. It was encouraging, validating, humbling, and a bit overwhelming for me to be on the receiving end of so much positive attention. Each award came with a set of rules that usually included answering questions and providing facts and requirements about paying it forward and linking other bloggers. My understanding and appreciation of blogging awards went through a rapid transformation during a three week period of time in July 2012.
Now, I have come to the conclusion that I want to establish a blog award that recognizes the courage of being open, exposed, and authentic as part of a personal process of seeking healing, wellness, and growth. I’m calling it the Courageous Confessional Blog Award. The title of which is partially inspired by one of the first people I am bestowing the award to, Sean Paul Mahoney of urtheinspiration and his post, I haven’t got time for the pain. The other blogger who will be an inaugural recipient is Tobbe ‘Torbs’ Lindgren of slapppshot because of his five day series, Confessions of an Alcoholic!. Torbs’ presentation and sharing of this series is what helped transform my thought into action in creating this award.
The rules are simple. If you receive the award, write a post where you link back to the one who gave you the award and include the link back to this site. In that post, name at least one other blogger who has contributed to your healing and growth through the sharing of his or her own stories of courageous confession and provide a link to that person’s blog, including the specific post(s) that contributed to your journey.
It is o.k. to take as much time as you need to respond to the award. If you have received the award and have not yet discovered another blog that contributes to your journey and your process, please feel free to display the award and as you move forward in your journey, when you come across one who does, then share it and do your post.
By the way, all the rules are optional. If someone thought that you earned the award, then you earned it and have the right to display it without obligation to do anything else. The rules exist as a way to build community and provide a “clearinghouse” of posts and blogs that people who may need to read what you have to say can discover that they are less alone than they ever thought.
To that end, all posts that will be presented on this site will be Re-Blogs of those whose blogs and posts have gotten linked back as part of the awarding process. Eventually, I hope to have recipients who are willing to do Guest Blog posts. I will not be posting any of my own original content here. If you want to read my stories, you will have to visit my personal blog.
Thank you for visiting and taking the time.